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Hi.

Welcome to my blog. Here, I document my journey after the loss of my brilliant daughter Elira to suicide in January of 2018. I am learning how to breathe and be again without a large piece of my heart walking this world.

Elegy for My Daughter Elira

What do I do on your death day?

How do I breathe?

How do I wish it away?

What clothes do I wear?

How do I forget the cold night?

How do I not regret everything?

How did I say goodbye?

What will I do with my hair?

Pink or black shoes?

How did you die, my darling?

And why is the sun still shining?

The moon, too

Lighting the dark sky

How can I still love the moon?

When you are not here 

How do I love anyone?

My darling

My sun and my moon 

My breath

I don’t remember warmth or light 

I don’t remember colors

I don’t feel the wind or the rain 

I don’t hear thunders 

I yearn for you to come home 

Since you died 

My darling. 

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One Thousand and One Nights

Your Absence

Your Absence